I’m usually preparing and planning but this time I procrastinated and pouted finding myself traveling alone to a Christian Women’s Seminar in Phoenix, entitled “Getting the Victory.” I arrived early and asked a friendly gal how to find the registration desk. That’s how I met Billie.
Billie and I became friends quickly. She gave me a tour of the facility so I could navigate the workshops that would be featured after lunch.
I liked the cafe where you could hang out and I bought Billie a cup of coffee. We chatted about our personal lives, house pets, and our late mothers! We laughed at our similar upbringing! Billie kindly shared her notes with me since I missed the first night’s teaching. I liked how she articulated scripture.
I tore into my registration packet like a wee child at Christmas, grabbing at all the workshop choices. “The one about Possessing Your Promise has my name on it, Billie,” I said. “What are you choosing?” She replied: “I wish these conferences offered something for the recovering homosexual.”
My mind left in a fog at that point. How should I address this? I wondered if Women’s Ministries are missing a need here. What should I say next?
I focused again and now I hear Billie continuing to talk about not believing she was born that way and quoting scripture to back her stand. She told me that The Word of God is her benchmark, but, oh, the temptation is a colossal conflict.
I observed my new friend. Billie wore baggy, over-sized sweatpants and T-shirt, athletic shoes and cap. I wore my signature color, pink. My toes and nails were freshly polished with Boom Boom Hot Pink from Sinful Colors. And I was able to get into my jeans with the sequin design on the back hip pockets.
It doesn’t matter that we’re different. She was as comfortable with me as I was with her. It’s ok to be mismatched when it’s God’s appointment. Billie and I may have different styles and issues, but the truth is we are both flawed women. Our battles, though diverse, cry out for God’s grace.
A while back, my prayer sister, my confidant---the one I tell my secrets to, raised her left eyebrow asking me if I know the ______commandment and can I say it out loud. You know you’re in trouble when they ask you to recite a commandment. I am in no position to judge anyone.
Billie and I hung out that day. We worshiped God in the assembly along with a few hundred other flawed women lifting up our voices and hands to a holy God. The precious blood of Jesus Christ covered us like a safety net as we praised the One we love.
We said goodbye and exchanged emails. “Let’s go to next year’s seminar together! Don’t forget me, okay?”
How could I ever forget you, Billie?
I get it that Billie tensed when I hugged her goodbye. She barely answers my wordy emails.
I can’t imagine the loneliness of this trucker’s life, going home to an empty house with no one to share dinner with, or touch. I pray for her often. The Lord trusted me with this friendship and I won’t let Him down.
I learned from my weekend:
- People long to be accepted
- Human Beings are flawed
- We all need God’s grace in our faith journeys
- Victory comes through Jesus Christ, not us