I saw an interesting question on Emily Freeman’s blog as the month of January closed. “What have you learned this month?” One thing I noticed in January is that I saw progress in my self esteem.
I think we can all relate to the discouragement of getting back in shape after indulging in the holidays. Every year I tell myself “Oh, I won’t eat that many Christmas cookies. I’m just making them as gifts.” Yeah, gifts I like to give and get…and sample. It’s such a weakness. Then comes January and my clothes don’t fit right. Amazing what five extra pounds can do. You reap what you sow.
A few days ago, I had a luncheon date with my best friend. Maureen is a pretty, petite blonde with a lot of class. She’s a business woman, a caring wife and mom of grown children. I learn so much from her about health, faith and life in general. I am not intimidated, but challenged. It’s a great friendship. We usually lunch at the more swanky places so I take extra pains to spruce up a bit. Last Friday, I changed outfits three times before I left for the restaurant and I still thought I looked fat, maybe not to some, but I kept thinking of how pretty and thin Maureen is! That kind of thinking gets me in trouble! I caught myself comparing but this time reality set in quickly as I did a little self talk. I am pre-approved. Okay, so I need to discipline my cravings (again.) I know how to do this and I will!
We women can really be hard on ourselves. I’m happy to see small steps of progress. It feels wonderful not to get tripped up by the outer things remembering that Jesus loves me, and He paid the price for any of my mistakes, big or small, so that I don’t have to view myself as a mistake.
Do you know what’s funny? I mentioned all this to Maureen and the expression on her face put a smile on mine. She confessed a gain of five pounds too. I didn’t even notice. I was too busy being real with my buddy and she was being honest with me. And when that happens, walls fall. Love flows freely when the walls come down. We opened up about a lot of deeper things that really needed to be discussed. The enemy lost this round.
Just in case you’re wondering, neither one of us ordered dessert. What lesson have you learned in January?
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